The silence without you...
We never did speak
I couldn't break what was real
You never understood what I meant.
Only in the winter could the clouds be so red
Against the blackness of night
Relentlessly holding foolish regrets.
How one can change the pace of your life,
This change consumed my will
To ever see the light…
How one can feel,
This resistance holding me back from you.
Years and years
Time past the days
Those impossible fears
Relentlessly scratching at the surface
Of scars that wouldn't heal.
Years and years...
I would have wished it all away.
If I would have known what was yet to come,
But instead I asked you to stay.
Though I never said a word,
The silence I held within
Kept inside from childhood.
Only in the winter could the skies be so red,
The punishing distance between me and you…
Is my final regret.
Alec Wildey - Jan 2007
The Silence Within & Out © 2007